Sunday, December 13, 2009

Happy holidays.


Drunken chandelier.


Sober chandelier.

This year, I am moving back to the city, starting a new job, and going to school. A lot of newness, a lot of stress.

Amidst all this, I try to remember to be grateful. And to love a lot :)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Finds.


Vintage fabric and leather bag, bought from Little Tuna on etsy, with T's birthday gift card. I like how fat and solid and simple it is, like it will be there for me when all else fails. Perfect for going to school from work, which I will be doing in the coming months.


L.L. Bean Maine duck boots ($28 from Whatcirca on etsy!). For sloshing through puddles, walking in snow, duck hunting, and other weekend activities.

I am definitely getting into this menswear thing.

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Sunday, December 06, 2009

Sheridan's Remake of "Brothers"

I haven't seen the original, but consistent with the movie's title and true to Hollywood's typical ways, women in "Brothers" get completely shafted. Portman's character, Grace, the loving and beautiful young military wife, is given almost nothing to work with, though she is present in nearly every [stateside] scene. Like her husband's stepmother, Elsie, played by Mare Winningham, Grace is the portrait of virtue-- innocent of the crime her husband accuses her of (she apparently only kissed Tommy, his brother), paralyzed with empathy when her husband goes ballistic with rage and violence, and always, despite her pain, the perfect mother to her two little girls. Her grief, when she thinks her husband is dead, is dignified and restrained--she smells her husband's clothes, weeps while watching old videos of their family, cannot bring herself to read his last letter to her. Nowhere do we get anger, desperation, grief, resentment, darkness. And when he comes back, a shadowy and skeletal version of his former self, clearly traumatized and haunted, a powder keg about to explode, there is no whiff of fear in Grace. Somehow we are supposed to believe that she has complete faith in his eventual rehabilitation.

What about the first night her husband is back? What a landmine a scene of that first intimacy between the reunited couple would have been-- the director, of course, doesn't bother trying to figure out how that would have played out. Instead, Portman leans her head against Maguire's bruised and scarred back in the bathroom--quiet, noble, loving, and then he rejects her.

The only female in the film whose character is delineated with any psychological believability is Isabelle, the older daughter. And the child actor, Bailee Madison, performs every one of her scenes with pitch-perfect brilliance. She, unlike her mother, registers fear, resentment, jealousy, ugliness. When her father is deployed at the beginning of the film for yet another tour of duty, she tries to stonewall him with a cold shoulder. When he is reported dead (plot improbability), she refuses to put her dress on for his funeral. Grief is selfish, so is pain, and one's understanding or misunderstanding of the cruelty of life's misfortunes can only be seen through a personal lens--this affects me, my life; her character's the only one who seems to get that. In the scene at her sister's birthday party, Isabelle acts out by grabbing her sister Maggie's presents from her. In part displacing her resentment toward her father with jealousy for her sister's happiness, she shouts at him, "I didn't get anything I wanted for my birthday, and you were in stupid Afghanistan." When both her parents scold her for the remark and then continue to ignore her bad behavior, she begins stewing and then playing with a balloon by rubbing its sides so that it squeaks. Her public suffering is searing; you can't take your eyes off of her any more than the adults at the table can pay attention to her. It is Medusian.

To my mind, then, it is Isabelle that encapsulates the fallout of war; her father's transformation from good to evil, to speak of his character in terms of Greek tragedy, is mirrored in her fall from innocence. These changes are irrevocable; trauma, though it can be healed to some degree, leaves an indelible impression. We become what we are because of what happens to us, and like her father, Isabelle has no choice about how she has been changed.

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Twombly.





















Instinctively, I understood.

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Friday, November 20, 2009

I'm thinking about "Reds" this morning.


John Reed and Louise Bryant.



Ten Days that Shook the World.



Louise Bryant.



From the film: The intrepid journalist couple covering the Bolshevik revolution.

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Adventures in fashion.


For carrying my spelling book and report card home to Mama.



I sprang from my father's head. Then I sewed some sequins onto my shoulders.




To be worn while tumbleweeds roll past an anemic mule in the background.








It goes without saying, I think, that, to be a little fashion forward, you sometimes have to wear ugly clothes. Not ugly, per se, but something wobbling right on that fine line between cool and ridiculously stupid-looking. You go backwards into the style mistakes of previous decades, or you mine the ethnographic possibilities of, say, marginalized non-white cultures. Or you fish through your parents' basement for artifacts from your childhood. Yes?






All items can be purchased at Milan Vintage.

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Superstudio was so hot.















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